A Good Day

Yesterday was the first day that I felt something other than sadness. I had many moments of happiness and joy! It felt good to smile and actually mean it. Sure, there is sadness still but I think I am beginning to see the light. I have been trying to be more positive lately, mainly for my daughter. I don't want her growing up in a home of pure sadness. I need to be the same happy mom that I was to her just 7 short weeks ago.

It was just a regular day at home. Maybe it was the excitement of Halloween the night before, or the happiness of our daughter after her sugar rush. Maybe it was because it was November 1st and part of me wanted out of the sadness of October. Something inside me felt lighter and I became happy for our future. I actually became excited for the holidays. I was glued to the ipad and was inspired through pinterest. I became excited for baking, crafts and holiday diy. I thought of all of the fun things that we would do with our daughter and how excited she would be. As I was pinning away, it started to SNOW! Huge, fluffy flakes floated from the sky to the ground. I excitedly screeched and rushed my daughter outside. There were were, standing out front in our pj's watching the pure white flakes fall and hit our warm skin. This is when I felt happy. Peaceful. There is something about nature that makes me feel so connected to Sawyer.  

                                                   

I hope I experience more of these magical moments with my kids. Where I can connect with them both at the same time. My daughter in my arms, and Sawyer in my heart <3 .